haribo and happiness

long time no post (sorry guys , ima busy bee)

anyway , you guys remember this photo ..

well the other hand in this picture belongs to one of the coolest people of all time.

we had a very productive afternoon on Tuesday

this is what came out of it 

a cow for the top of my computer monitor

and my amazing insight ..

as i said EXTREAMLY productive 

we also discovered this is more true for me and Laura than it is for J.D and Turk  we are a little bit married and i love it !!!! :D 

so this post is dedicated to you , Laura la-page because your awesome. that is all

lots of love

Lauren

xx 

roadblocks and meltdowns

with turners syndrome.one of the hardest things to deal with is a lack of communication. not all of us have this , but for the ones that do and there parents. it is a daily battle.

so i spoke to a ts mum today. one that was at her wits end because her daughter had a meltdown. and because her daughter was as frustrated and upset about this as she was.and neither of them know which way is up at this point in time.

yes this is how life goes with a child that has poor communication skills, this is a normal reaction and no ... IT IS NOT BAD PARENTING

i have a question .. do you think this little girl is worth the hard work her parents are putting in ....

because i certainty do , and so do her parents

so next time you mouth off about the screaming kid in Tesco and blame the parents , think , is that child just worth the extra work ?. some kids have more trouble than others, respect that !

we love you mac and penny 

lots of love

Lauren

xx

the 'sponge effect'

people as a whole have a habit of letting the things closest to them , define them.

now this can be good and bad, depending on who or what you are closest to. you see its all about approval. i have seen so many of my friends fall away from god and there friends because they try to change themselves to meet the approval of there boyfriend/girlfriend and of course because the only person who can change a person, truly, is God. they never quite fit the bill of this fantasy they have set out to obtain. it only ever leaves them broken.

now i have fallen foul to this so many times. in fact its something i struggle with quite a bit. for example, there is a certain person who im very close to and i love dearly. and in most circumstances she is an amazing  influence on me , and she has a wonderful way of breaking through to me and making me see sense , but , she swears , so you guessed it. when im around her i get a potty mouth. and i never mean to, it just happens 

so you see my point , this part of human nature can be very destructive. if you start having the kind of people who , do drugs , make you look down on yourself. or stop you being the very best version of yourself . your self esteem will drop.

however, this works in a good way aswell. so im sure you have herd the biblical expression "iron sharpens iron" this is very true. as i was saying about my person who has bad language im going to continue to use her example. im a very hyper/energetic person i literary bounce from place to place. well my friend is SO laid back shes almost horizontal and that has a good affect on me , calms me down alot. but iv notest, when she is around me. she becomes more hyper. i think it helps we both have this wild sense of humor where we literary see the world as a hysterically funny place most of the time and that helps as we balance each other out   

so how do we stop the 'sponge effect' ? never fear hear is Lauren's 3 point guide to stopping the sponge

1) avoid people you know will be only a bad influence. for me i have to avoid people who are attention seeking. because im a recovering attention seeker 

2) get as close to god as you can , thankfully the sponge effect works with him and he has a very strong personalty. so get into his word and pray and watch yourself change for the better (n.b this is my best tip , and god is the only person that will only ever have a positive affect on you)

 3)  be awhwere of who YOU are and recognize the 'sponge effect' on you. so that you will spot what you are taking from someone and work on not letting anything negative about them become part of you



^ warning continued exposure may lead to laughter and an inability to get organised or take life seriously   

lots of love

lauren

xx

the truth about addiction

why am i posting this today , why not post this for an addiction awareness day.

well anybody that knows me personally knows im very good with dates and today is the 9th of Jan - the day my mums now husband landed in England and gradually reintroduced her to drugs   

now this post is not going to sit well with some of you and in all honestly i think that's a goof thing , why , because addiction shouldn't sit well with anybody. it is a disease. just like cancer or aids. but of course there is not any grate fundraising events for programs that help addicts recover because there is a stigma attached to it

and to prove my point. i have the best quote about addiction of all time from private practice 

"do you think people chose there misery , 

you think anyone who is not in the throws of a disease would willingly neglect there kids, 

do you think they want to be licking drugs of of bathroom floors

 and destroying there husbands

and taking everyone who loves them , down with them." 

- Jake Riley (private practice)  

addiction kills people and famileys , these people need help not a label of "they where never good for anything anyway , because once upon a time. they where people, with jobs and lives.

so just stop judging a book by its cover

lots of love

Lauren 

xx  

a post about ts , on a ts blog , NEVER

OK you may of realized  i haven't mentioned much about ts on this blog so allow me to rectify.

10 ways that tuners affects me ...

1) a heart for adoption

seeing as im infertile this one is handy, ever since about the age of 11 and fully understood what it was about i have been fascinated with the idea that 2 people would give a child that isent biologically there's a loving home

2) an ability to empathize with outsiders

turners has made me look at people that are different in a much better way than i think i would have done if i didn't have ts i treat them equally and love them for who they are 

3) an acceptance of myself (warts and all)

see the kid in the picture shes no super model. shes never going to be one of the leggy blond types but who gives a monkeys she look the way she look and that's the way shes gonna stay .... so i may aswell be happy with it right ?

4) big eyes 

this seams to be a bit of a ts thing as most of us have said this i have apasoloutly  amazingly big brown eyes. its safe to say im quite proud of my peepers

this is the best photo i could find to demonstrate this

5) hide and seek 

i know this is a bit of a silly one but being so small gives you a big advantage in hide and seek !

6) a chance to meet new people

now i couldn't possibly find a photo that encapsulates this. but ts has brought so many wonderful people into my life 

7) resilience

i have an ability to bounce back from almost anything, stronger and please i didn't give up  

8) an ability to celebrate the little victory

woo im tall enough for that ride and thort park YAY its my fave dinner (sausages in case you where wondering) its the little things that make me happy 

9) the "oh im so sorry" factor 

when someone starts taking the mick out of me being short i just say "its a chromosomal abnormality actually" watch there jaw drop then say "BAHAHA you face , you actually thought i gave a dam you called me short..." *cue shocked laughter from culprit* 

10) a positive outlook on the world 

i haven't always had this and it fails me from time to time but for the most part i have an ability to see all the good things around me 

don't be afraid to ask me questions about my ts , i would  much rather you asked than Google it and got it compleatly twisted may i refer you to my earlier post about someone thinking i was going to drop dead any minuet #fail 

lots of love 

Lauren

xx

a letter to a 13 year old me

hiya lolz , so not going to grate for you right now are they ? ...

nope , i didn't think so 

well this is a letter from you 6 years in the future (very Dr who, haha) to tell you that its gonna be alright. now i have a sneaking feeling that your thinking , o screw you future me. for right now it sucks like a grate big suckish thing and its NEVER gonna get better, well my younger self you would be wrong. it dose get better. much better in fact than you ever dreamed possible.

so as you know mums gone A.W.O.L again right ?. but it feels different this time dosent it, sadly, that's because it is. shes not coming back. But you get through it, and you amaze yourself with the strength you never though you had *hi 5 through time/space continuum* (again very Dr who) 

so you got a bit if crap to go through yet. missing your brother (say hi to little alf for me what is he right now like , 7) moving to your nanny's and feeling like a total burden on the word (that one takes some getting over, but we get there. keep reading).and now your thinking. you have basically told me that life has more rubbish in store (but jam you dodgers my friend because hears the cool bit. this next paragraph is going to blow your little mind) 

in about 2 years, your gonna have a phone call with tash (mind still unblown i hear you say in the words of Barney Stinson wait fooooooor it .... *your still yet to know the joys of himym so don't worry if you don't get this reference* ) and your going to somehow get coeased into a church. your gonna put one up one hell of a fight about it (like only we can ey ???) but on this rare occasion we lose. be happy about this because (make sure your sitting down because hear comes the mind blown bit ......

you meet Jesus

i know right now you think church is a nice way to stop old crusty people being lonely on Sunday mornings but you will literary be speechless (yes it dose happen eventually lol) when some random guy with a brightly colored Mohawk called tom tells you "its not your fault" (cue that ugly crying thing we do *yes your still and ugly cryer in 6 years soz buckets :/ im working on it* ) and you realize Jesus isent some floating guy up in the sky but right there next to you. he is there with you right now you just cant feel it because your to bloody suborn to look and think you can take the world on alone (you cant just to let you know)  

o and just and add on that i should mention about 6 months after all of the being saved stuff happens you meet some other people with ts THEY ARE EPIC just to name a few you got Helen who turns out to be an epic big sister/ mother hen figure in your life , heather , kim who is literary like your big sis from up north and then Caroline. aka mom (yes spelt the Canadian way) don't let the bright purple hair fool you. your the bad influence hear (rofl) you literary run out of texts all the time making sure she knows your safe (trust me i know it sounds strange and stalker-ish now but you will grow to panic when your phone dosent flash purple for 24 hours) so to sum up they all rock   

so the kid's in this photo 

    

there gonna be just fine 

so fine in fact you ending up helping over kids in there position and showing them the love of Christ (there is a sentence you never thought you would hear ha?)

o and sneak preview of you after you done being a holey terror to anyone that attempts to get close to you and cut your hair off *gulp* don't worry it suits you see ...    

o and look you end up with more than one friend and everything ...

so long story short , hang in there because boys are going to be frustrating your gonna have cat fights and do all of though normal teenage things like you always kinda wanted to be able to and it is all going to come good in the end ..

November 16th 2010 (the day you get saved) its gonna be cooler than you even imagen it to be i promise

o yer before i go ...you still haven't grown out of that still cant take life seriously because laphing at its more fun thing as you can see from pictures 

well im gonna go get 2013 (yes 2013 already) to a good start i have a feeling that this year life could get even better for us so im going to go give it all i got and report back soon 

lots of love 

Lauren 

xx